War is near!

Ai wo qing nian is near! We only left 3days! Very scare i will do smthg wrong at the camp. I m now thinking how 2 b a ying zhang Mayb tis question should have been think few months ago, but i still can't get the right way 2 b a ying zhang or a leader. Confusing me now! I hate myself when i distroy smthg good 2 bad, n i m scare. So i decide i wouldn't go 2 schl these few days n try 2 make everything clear 2 myself so i wouldn't be blur in the camp! Gambateh! U can make it! i know u can! N thanks a lot for the confident u guys gave me! I love u guys!